Japhy wants to share with you his life with Khenpo Karthar, begging your indulgence, as an example of Guru Yoga without violence.
“My guru yoga began in earnest after the failure of my first encampment, which could have been the end of me and Rinpoche.”
Japhy had taken refuge, as he had set out to after quitting graduate school, following in the footsteps of his inspiration, Kerouac’s Japhy, the poet Gary Snyder.
“In my first years with Khenpo Karthar, Rinpoche had set me up with, if this wasn’t the Vajrayana, what was a lifetime worth of practice.”
Khenpo Karthar, as if Rinpoche saw the end from the beginning, in addition to hooking Japhy up with Green Tara, dropped the ultimate on him, if you are Karma Kagyu, Mahamudra.
“I had received pointing out from His Holiness the 16th Karmapa, but needed the lung and tri, to take it up as a practice.”
Without naming names, others with far less than what Khenpo Karther entrusted to Japhy, have made a career out of their few years as young men spent with a lineage holder.
“Cough, Cough, Ken McLead. Excuse me, I had something in my throat. I was just clearing my throat.”
Khenpo Karthar, in a nutshell, didn’t visit Chicago for ten of Japhy’s thirty plus years with Rinpoche.
“I suffered like I was Milarepa, slaving away building towers for Marpa, cruelly denied the access to Rinpoche I felt my life depended upon.”
Japhy was a health insurance claims adjuster, with a wife and two babies, educated, but acutely underemployed, and tragically underpaid.
“My cohorts were flush, and had both the time and money to see Rinpoche whenever They needed to, while I had neither, which almost killed me.”
Japhy ended up hospitalized in 1988, for his own protection, driven to despair over his life’s seemingly hopeless prospects for living the life he so desperately wanted for himself.
“This was before Ronald Reagan finished destroying the rights of those in need, before their need for help, ends in their harming themselves, or worse, others, for want of the help they need.”
This the Vajrayana that Japhy is speaking of, Guru Yoga. Simply having a practice to do, is no substitute for the holy grail of Vajrayana, the Vajra Master.
Japhy’s point here, is that one can suffer the suffering of a Milarepa, an integral part of Vajrayana, without being subjected to the physical and psychological violence Milarepa had to endure with Marpa.
“After ten years without Khenpo Karthar, not coincidently, almost to the day I had the good fortune of marrying my second wife, Gigi, Rinpoche returned to Chicago.”
“Our first face to face was like the past ten years had never happened, we hadn’t missed a beat.”
Those ten years apart seemingly ruined Japhy’s life, at one point he was homeless, he is estranged from his son to this day.
“There will always be a part of me that wishes I had pulled a Ken McLeod, for all I had suffered in the name of the Vajrayana, Guru Yoga.
After over thirty years with Khenpo Karthar though, Japhy can face death, he has Congestive heartfailure, prepared to be reborn in Dewachen.
“When the widow maker got me, I’ve been a dead man walking since, I had my guru yoga, tested, tried and true, to see me through the bardo of death.”
Japhy wanted to share this with you, for your consideration. The Vajrayana, Guru Yoga, will ruin your life, if done as Japhy did it with Khenpo Karthar.
“Better to not start. Once started though, not seeing it through, is a far greater tragedy than whatever hardship you may endure along the way.”
Japhy is done embarrassing himself. Please post a link to this on Reddit, which Japhy has been banned from doing so himself. Karmapa Chenno!